The Pre-Holiday Descent Towards Madness (narrowly avoided)
I think this has happened before. I stress myself out over the importance of the holiday and I start to panic that I'm not embracing the whole idea of Christmas - with the shiny plastic snowmen and the miles of brightly colored tinsel. Then the doldrums attack and I glumly ponder that I'll not encounter that sense of giving and openness and - basically the month-long sensation of lots of very welcome soul-hugs - that is attached to the season in my mind. And that I'll miss it entirely and have to wait for next year. It's an irrational and bizarre fear - but there you have it.
I don't know why it suddenly hit me. After a couple weeks of fretting about the season. Of seeing the decorations go up. Of hearing Christmas music. Of shopping for gifts and wrapping paper. Of worrying that my Christmas spirit would never arrive. As my workday ended, a pair of coworkers started discussing their desktop wallpaper, and I - with nothing better to do with those 10 minutes of time - set off through the wooly woods of the web in search of a wallpaper appropriate to the season. Whether it was my tiredness, or the end of NaNoWriMo, or the sometimes tasteless combinations of bokeh, pine needles, snow and Christmas tree baubles - but I feel the Christmas spirit cautiously edging through the backdoor of my consciousness, sprinkling the Christmas equivalent of fairy dust over my emotions.
So what if I may not be in our house for Christmas day? The decorations are just as much for my own soul over the entire length of December as they are for guests and Christmas day!
If, like me, you're struggling with the pre-holiday blahs - I'll share the sparks that are slowly growing into a lovely glow of Christmas warmth for me.
I don't know why it suddenly hit me. After a couple weeks of fretting about the season. Of seeing the decorations go up. Of hearing Christmas music. Of shopping for gifts and wrapping paper. Of worrying that my Christmas spirit would never arrive. As my workday ended, a pair of coworkers started discussing their desktop wallpaper, and I - with nothing better to do with those 10 minutes of time - set off through the wooly woods of the web in search of a wallpaper appropriate to the season. Whether it was my tiredness, or the end of NaNoWriMo, or the sometimes tasteless combinations of bokeh, pine needles, snow and Christmas tree baubles - but I feel the Christmas spirit cautiously edging through the backdoor of my consciousness, sprinkling the Christmas equivalent of fairy dust over my emotions.
So what if I may not be in our house for Christmas day? The decorations are just as much for my own soul over the entire length of December as they are for guests and Christmas day!
If, like me, you're struggling with the pre-holiday blahs - I'll share the sparks that are slowly growing into a lovely glow of Christmas warmth for me.
- Beautiful images of Christmas Coffee. This was the collection that caught my eye and brought me back for 2nd and 3rd looks: http://favim.com/image/108508/
- Christmas music. Specifically Josh Groban's Believe and Thankful
Here's a Youtube link for the latter: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yoygmylt2iM - Candles. Maybe it'll just be a few moments of relaxation - admiring the candlelight, and nothing more. But that relaxation, and the light and warmth (see my theme here?) will help.
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